Another one I found

Robyn and I had met through my blog about 6 yrs ago. At the time, as I said, she had a blog too. Her story and spirit compelled me. I added her to my feed and as the blog posts on each blog went on, we began a friendship.

As the years went by, the friendship was completely outside the blogs, addresses were exchanged, Christmas cards, by this point we knew more about each other than probably people I grew up with.

I lost her for 8 months at one point. I was very frantic about it and even wrote about it on my blog trying to find her or see if she was hiding. ;) Well I had the best Christmas that year because I found her and we had reconnected. She had been through a horrific time and had to have some time away. This time, we exchanged phone numbers, I didn't want this to happen again.



This was sent to me about 3 yrs into the relationship.

Robyn Taylor January 6, 2007 at 2:48am
Kay,

We've never met in "real life," but I consider you a soul mate. You have made me feel so loved, and I truly care for you, so much. I don't know if we agree on all things, and I don't care (although I think we may agree on some things we couldn't share with others), but thank you for being my friend. You are very REAL to me. You have enriched my life, and I thank you.

I wish you so many good things, and I love you. (Enough smaltz. But I mean every word.)

Much love,
Robyn

I had nearly forgotten about this letter, not because it was not memorable but because we literally exchanged daily for the past 4 years so we have had many many conversations, many late night when she couldn't sleep and I was up. We were both night owls, another of the 1000 things we had in common.

What struck me about this, and why I am sharing, even if it is just for my memory keeping on here, is that yes I had forgotten but when I read it, I realized this was the same way I felt about her and always had. We may of been "smaltzy" but I was always aware of the blessing she was to me.

In 42 years I have had some special people. But Robyn will always be in the top 3 most impressive people I have had the privilige to know and love that I wasn't related to.

I slept good last night, and did very well today until a few hours ago. Then a stupid song came on to remind me. I still haven't heard back from her family on a service. I imagine she is going to be cremated and her remains be put in the ocean just as she did Phils.

I want something tangible, a way to say goodbye. I am still working on it, but in the meantime I will just post my little memories. They are keeping me sane right now.