She went to the doctor last Thursday after a week or so of being weak and having off again on again fever for 2 weeks. No other symptoms just tired and as the days wore on, near exhaustion.
She had no argument from any of us when we told her to get thyself to a doctor no sooner than yesterday.
Thursday she had her appointment, went in and within an hour was admitted into the hospital.
Her blood pressure was 70/40. She had a high bacterial count in her urine, deemed that her kidneys were "septic" and admitted her.
She couldn't even go to the bathroom for a sample at the hospital so they cathed her and found she was also dehydrated.
She was immediately put on an IV of two powerful antibiotics and a bollus? (SP?) which is a very fast sodium chloride push thru an IV to try and raise her blood pressure.
After 2 days of this they got her BP too high, it remains a battle to this day. Now we are also dealing with insulin, which she was always a very controlled diet/pill diabetic until this. She is also having sinking spells as she calls them and isn't able to walk to the bathroom. Finally we had one day she got pretty normal and walked to the bathroom only to go backwards yet again last night with the 104 fever and high blood pressure.
Today they called in a new doctor who is taking a different approach to this. After adding yet another antibiotic 24 hrs ago she should be much better and she isn't. So we are looking at yet another underlying cause.
To say I am scared is an understatement. Noone wants their Mom to be sick, nobody expects their young Mom to have this all happen out of the blue at once when nothing was wrong 2 weeks ago. But that is life, full of twists and turns.
It would just so happen I am having severe marital problems at this point. Drew picked the day after this started to start his shit. Don't get me wrong, I see a little of his points, I understand his frustrations but he has not ONCE gone to the hospital, gave me a hug through out all of this or supported me. He has just given me grief. I know his long hours right now feel thankless in that we are never ahead it seems. I just now start feeling better and getting around then WHAM! He is generally 80% of the time, easy going and just a damn good husband, but as all of us, has his quirks, just that this particular quirk is almost to the point of being a deal breaker especially due to his timing. It is just childish to give silent treatment when your spouse is needing you to throw it aside and give comfort. Especially when it is a STUPID CHILDISH THING and nothing major. I just don't know what is fixing to happen.
In other news a high school friend is probably fixing to say goodbye to her 19 yr old son who is losing his battle with cancer. Another friend is saying goodbye to HER Mom at a hospital today and yet another lost her husband 2 days ago. Lori is dealing with aftermath of grieving and crazy from her Mom right now. It is all just one big clusterfuck and it leaves me to wonder what the hell is the use in this life sometimes.
I am just so unfocused on where my attention must lie right now but I made my decision.
Right here.
6 comments:
It sounds like you need the biggest hug ever. What can I do for you?
Kay I am so sorry this is all happening at once to you. Seperately they are all hard things, together, lethal. I wish I could do something. If there is anything any of us can do, please let us know.
I am sending you the biggest m-effing hug you have EVER had.
I wish I was there to help you get through this.
Hugs.... sending prayers.
I love you. I am so sorry any of this is happening, especially all at once. I can't believe you have been worried about ME.
If I had the money, I swear I would fly to Arkansas right now just to give you a hug and hold your hand.
xoxo
oh, honey. so sorry. hold on.
The SUCK! There is nothing worse in the marital world than feeling like your partner is failing you when you need them most. It happens in my house, too, and for the life of me, I can't figure out why. The stress? The pressure? A childish gene that rears it's ugly head ("ME! ME! IT NEEDS TO BE ABOUT ME RIGHT NOW!)? I don't have a freaking clue.
I do know that my heart takes just the tiniest step backwards when it happens. And usually steps forward again after the storm subsides.
But not always.
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